Dawn Asahi

qt_foxee@yahoo.com — Sun, 25 May 2003 02:30:28 GMT

YAY! I got to talk to Trowa today! Star and Quatre went out for some... fancy, party, opening deal thing-- turned down the invitation to go, though. I would have felt quite awkward. Besides, my closet hasn't recovered yet-- it's still full of soldier clothing >_> I have nothing nice to wear at all. And I haven't bothered to do anything about that since I'm not trying to impress anyone-- I'm rarely out of this mansion since I came back (and boy, do Quatre's servants just LOOOOOVE me xD).

Well, just so happens Trowa did his monthly call today and I was the only one around!

He got an earful of me. I hope he didn't mind too much. ^_^ But I told him how much I missed him, over and over and over. I could practically hear his amusement on the other line. Then I made him promise to come visit sometime soon. He agreed...... Probably will see him in five year, if I'm lucky ;)

Oops, I think the happy couple's back... I better get off Quatre's computer. He wouldn't be too happy if he catches me loitering around in his office.

Absence.

qt_foxee@yahoo.com — Wed, 07 May 2003 02:17:54 GMT

I finally... came home.

After a year of wandering, trying to find myself, trying to see if there was a life for me out there-- I came back here. Where everything seemed to have begun for me. At least in this life I'm living with, right now.

I know I'm still pretty young, but why do I feel so old?

I was happy to see Quatre and Star again, though. They both welcomed me back with enthusiasm. They said things has been so quiet around lately...

Duo's gone away, too, it seems. Trowa's with his circus family at the moment, but he apparently still keeps in touch with Quatre. Wufei is now hard at work with Sally (who I also need to speak too soon.. She must be worried sick).

No one touched my room here, though! Someone even dusted it up for me :> Aahhh... I forgot how much fun and leisurely it is to live with Quatre the Gazillionaire! xD But yeah... They're right. It's still too quiet around here...

I wonder if Heero will ever come back here.

qt_foxee@yahoo.com — Sun, 20 Apr 2003 22:49:11 GMT

I'M PREGNANT!

Just kidding.

No, I was not with Heero this whole time. We kinda parted a few weeks after we both got away from Zechs sillyness. ~shrugs~ He and I went everywhere in those few weeks. Well, not everywhere... but I made him go to different places that I thought might get him to loosen up. It did, for a little bit. He smiled sometimes... but usually when I did something stupid to hurt myself ._.; Bastard.

Then, one day, with barely a goodbye, he just decided to leave. Said he still had important things to do...

And I went off to see if I had anything important to do myself.

Hehehehe.

qt_foxee@yahoo.com — Sun, 29 Dec 2002 04:49:49 GMT

You're all probably wondering where I've been!

Or most likely... not wondering where I've been.

Or where Heero and I been for that matter.

Either way-- I'm not telling where I am right now. Hehehehe >D Himitsu desu! For now anyways....

Perhaps, I'll feel like talking about it later... bwehehehehe...

Zechs is just a silly ol' goat you guys-- why do we fight with him? nyuuuuuuuuuuu~?

hmmm.. champagneeeee...DJslkj394890jalsk'_)-

Yay!

qt_foxee@yahoo.com — Wed, 24 Jul 2002 09:55:27 GMT

An excuse to leave! :D

Ano........ Sally contacted me and said she needed my aid in some attack Zechs Marquise is planning on the colonies. So.... I took the mission. I have nothing else to do around here. I told Star tonight that I was going to go. She gave me a strange look--

So I figured Quatre hadn't told her about this one yet :P Oops, sorry, Quatre.

So. This morning we left. I'm on a spacecraft with Sally right now, and they're going over the plans. I think I'm part of the decoy group. She always gives me such easy jobs xP

The fight is in 8 hours, so maybe I'll go catch some sleep.

qt_foxee@yahoo.com — Wed, 17 Jul 2002 08:03:48 GMT

A very whacked out Quatre informs me that Heero's planning to leave. Argh. Put pressure on me, why don't you?!

I sat all afternoon and night, after Quatre told me what Heero was planning to do. Part of me wanted to go find Heero and tell him to not go, that I wanted him here, that we could keep trying and trying even if takes infinity, it doesn't matter... A part of me is saying to let him go... To let myself go... Explore other possibilities...

But my life... My life is never for sure. I know how I feel for Heero and... It's so hard to explain. For someone who grew up in war, like I did, they would understand. For someone living in a war... It's hard to let go of people that easily, you know? Because they are so hard to find...

But before I get into all these deep angsty meant for fanfics stuff-- I redid my LJ the other night! It helped me kept my mind off Heero, you know. Ha ha... I'll redo other people's later if they want me too ^_^

Anyways... last night... thinking about all the stuff I said before... I went to see Heero that night.

I knocked on his bedroom door. At first, there wasn't an answer, and when I was starting to think he wasn't even there, the door opens. He seemed surprise to see me. I let myself in, knowing he's not going to invite me in anytime during that night, anyways.

"I heard you were taking off," I told him. "Are you coming back?"

"..." He closes the door behind him, shrugging. "If I find a reason to come back." He walks towards his bed where there was an opened, half-full duffel bag sat. He places a hand on it, but does nothing else. I stood by him.

"What if I give you a reason to come back?" I demanded, staring down at the bag. And seriously, that duffel bag would be enough to take all his belongings too o_O

As usual, he didn't seem to find the right respond to that, staring off across the wall, frowning. I hugged him then. Well... okay, more like tackled him down on the bed. Well, it's not my fault he was too busy brooding or contemplating to pay attention to balancing himself on his feet! I ended up on top of him, and he stared up at me, blinking. I quickly moved off and let him sit up, and then I hugged him again. As I started to pathetically beg him to not leave, to tell him that I didn't want him to leave me, and that I want to be enough reason for him to come back.

Nothing else happened... All I remember was waking up early morning in his arms. He held me perfectly, and for the first time in the past few days, I felt content.

Of course, afterwards, everything went back to the way it is.

But that's okay, I guess ^_^

qt_foxee@yahoo.com — Tue, 16 Jul 2002 09:06:16 GMT

Oh dear. Quatre and porn. Who would have ever thought? ;)

Today, I kinda avoided contact with Heero, because I still felt uncomfortable what happened on our "date", and I was pretty sure he was, too. But of course, fate still has it that we run into each other. I was taking a walk through Quatre's garden, and I bumped into him. We just stared at each other and said nothing.

Well, I didn't want things to be totally tense between us forever, so I flashed him a forced smile and grabbed his hand. We began walking together, like that. Quietly, his hand squeezing mine pretty hard...

In it's own way, for Heero, that was the closest he could get to apologizing, and I accepted it.

For about, ten minutes we walked like that. Total silence, the only noise are the birds, the winds rustling through the leaves...

He halted all of a sudden, tugging at my hand to make me face him. I almost fell but he caught me by the arms. He looked at me, and his usually apathetic face were flashing all different kinds of emotions so fast-- I couldn't read them. Then his look blanked out again.

I felt sadness all of a sudden...

I was sad that... we had nothing to say to each other, that he was stuck somewhere where I can't free him completely. From his own walls and defenses, he was trapped, and there's nothing I can do anymore. I was sad, knowing that if I hanged onto him, I'll end up getting stuck too...

I tore myself away from him, and ran off, not looking back.

He scares me so much, sometimes.

qt_foxee@yahoo.com — Mon, 15 Jul 2002 07:22:24 GMT

All right. I supposed I have to write about my date with Heero which I just got home from. And no-- there was no mad kinky sex because I'm writing this post right now! XP Nyee.

We didn't do anything too elaborate-- I just planned a normal hanging out thing, because... doing normal things are nice for people like me x_X At around early afternoon, we went to the movies. I wanted to see the Powerpuff Girls, but I didn't want to scare Heero... so I decided on Men In Black II instead. I thought the movie was funny... Heero didn't get it and questioned a lot of things >_> I told him to shut up and just be entertained for once. I think he got insulted at that point... and sulked. Bah!

Well, I used my charms on him to get him to lighten up a bit after the movie. The usual... flirting, poking him, teasing lightly, making stupid jokes... the little tricks I use on him that seems to work all the time. And it did. He relaxed while we walked to a nearby restaurant where we decided to eat. It was a small diner, and no one barely went in there, so I thought it would be perfect for someone like Heero.

We got to talking. Yes... Heero can talk, guys...

I asked him if he was having fun that we were doing something normal for once, together. He said he doesn't know, giving me a very strange expression.

"Don't you have fun with me?" I asked, playfully, kicking him slightly from under the table.

This seems to trouble him more as he stared at me, now a blank expression on his face.

"I take that as a no?" I inquired, raising my eyebrow at him.

At first he didn't reply, then an irritated look covered his face. He told me to quit asking him stupid questions like that. I think that the fact he didn't know how to answer those kind of questions frustrated him, that's why he snapped at me...

The rest of dinner went smoothly, and we just talked about mindless things from that point on.

But I still can't help feeling just a wee bit upset now.

qt_foxee@yahoo.com — Sun, 14 Jul 2002 06:42:16 GMT

~blink~ Heero's being incredibly easy these days... I think he's planning to kill me. o_O

but... if he's taking me out on a date! ~claps hands~ How about tomorrow night, Heero~kun? Ano... since you probably don't know what you're doing, I'll take care of things... :P

qt_foxee@yahoo.com — Thu, 11 Jul 2002 23:34:18 GMT

Wow. I managed to convice Heero to not go off to play fairly easily. I think I'm scared >_>

I'm getting extremely restless around here, though. I'm doing... nothing! :P

~grabs Heero and shakes him~ TAKE ME OUT OR SOMETHING YOU JERK! >_< Take me out for dinner! Then a movie! Then we'll go home and have mindless, kinky sex! AAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~~~!!!!

(if he turns down an offer like that, I would start getting very suspicious..)

qt_foxee@yahoo.com — Wed, 05 Jun 2002 06:06:21 GMT

I don't even know why I bother with freakin' Yuy most of the time. He can be so frustrating. Tonight, I just felt like being in his company... so I found him in the garage where he was rewiring Wing or something... I wasn't even talking or being as loud as I usually was, and he snapped at me. Told me to go away...

~makes a face~ I guess I really should get used to it. He's always cranky anyways. Never nice... :P at all.

There's other nice guys out there! And why do I need one anyways? >_> they're all probably getting killed off by now o.o Oops. I'm getting morbid.

oh well! I'm going to see if I can steal some food from the kitchen... I'm really hungry ;-;

qt_foxee@yahoo.com — Sat, 18 May 2002 02:57:11 GMT

To be a master, Pokemon master..~sings~

o.o I want a Heero-mon! Bwah! ~captures Heero-mon~ You're mine now, Heero-mon!!!

Nyerk!

qt_foxee@yahoo.com — Sat, 23 Mar 2002 18:30:42 GMT

Well- instead of helping Duo like I planned to do- I got a little sidetracked with my own battle. Along the way, my path crossed with the one and only, Relena Peacecraft. Try as I much to reason with the girl to turn around because it's too freakin' dangerous for a prissy princess pacifist like her (ha! she's a bunch of p!)- she refused to turn around. She said she wanted to see Heero.

~sighs~

Here I am, trying to actually save her ass and she won't listen. Fine! I hope something big falls on her head. Maybe that would smart her right up.

Then, she started yelling at me and calling me evil and such. She said girls like me shouldn't be fighting wars. I should be at home serving tea, playing with dolls, and having a grand ol' time brushing my hair... I told her, that might be fine and dandy for you and your brother but...>_>...

She also accused me of trying to keep Heero for myself. I want her to try and do that!.... Well, I guess she has been. But.. I'm closer to victory than she is. So... HA!

She wouldn't shutup with her ranting so I kicked her. Hee hee. Jeeves was too stoned to do anything. Nyahahahahaha! She tried to fight back, but I just kept kicking her till she cried for Heero. >_> What a freak.

Ano...o.o...

qt_foxee@yahoo.com — Wed, 13 Mar 2002 06:15:51 GMT

Well- thanks to Duo and Meg, Heero's in a pissy mood now c.c... So I think I'll stay away from him for a few days. or weeks. Maybe months. And years... >_>;;;

So, I shall sit here and amuse myself with the fact that Treize is very much alive- yet quite neurotic and... scary. ~snickers~ >_>... I think he got blown up a little too much and his brain cells went psycho.

~big sigh~ Ne... I need to get out of this mansion -.-

Tarepanda!

qt_foxee@yahoo.com — Sat, 23 Feb 2002 06:11:50 GMT

~hugs her Tarepanda stuff toy~ >_>...~beats Heero with it~

Ha ha!

~coughs~

Okay, so we haven't updated our journals lately. That kinda sucks of us. LOL But ah... been busy... with.. newer interests... Gasp! are we finally getting a life? Probably not...

It's been peace time lately. The Gundams and the enemies had a nasty battle just a few weeks ago, and I think both sides are still trying to recover from it. I know I am. But Heero's right here recovering with me! ~hugs him as he curses a lot~ Awwww... such a sweetheart >:)

....Okay, I'm going to stop making physical contact with him now before he goes psycho. Wait, he's already psycho. And now he wants his laptop back.... Let me press the update button and get rid of this window...

~snorts~

qt_foxee@yahoo.com — Tue, 15 Jan 2002 06:55:34 GMT

Duo's having party relapse. I told him to not drink so much but oh nooo! he's the god of death he says, he can handle it, he says! Ah well. It was fun seeing him drunk his ass off.

I'm hungry.

qt_foxee@yahoo.com — Sun, 13 Jan 2002 09:20:27 GMT

My head hurts. x_X

I've been up all night doing actual work. Then Heero got mad at me because he caught me checking up on some files and he said I didn't know what I was doing in the first place :P What a poopy. His spandex is on too tight, I swear.

Other than that, things has been relatively quiet. Too quiet.. I think I'm actually starting to feel lonely.

qt_foxee@yahoo.com — Wed, 26 Dec 2001 18:24:01 GMT

Gah! Almost forgot about this... thing.

Well, were all perfectly fine! Zech was too blonde. Blonder than me even >.o

Hrmm... Christmas wasn't a big production. Quatre made it really nice. We had lots of food! Which Duo cooked, suprisingly. He kept me out of the kitchen cuz he knew I was going to try and eat stuff :B But it was worth the wait! ^_^

Heero was planning to take off halfway through our meal, but I think even the Xmas spirit got to him. We didn't have any presents for each other, because we were so busy doing... things. (like saving our asses -_-)... So he gave me a kiss as a present- under the mistletoe. Yes, it's disgustingly sweet, leave me alone, I rarely get any moments like that ;_; Trying to date a godforsaken tightass.

I mean... I love you, Heero! :))))))))))

Huuurrrr.....................

qt_foxee@yahoo.com — Tue, 30 Oct 2001 05:51:05 GMT

We must run quick for Zechs is coming for us here in the cold, icy land of Alaska.

qt_foxee@yahoo.com — Wed, 24 Oct 2001 05:44:53 GMT

o_o What's going on now?

~shrugs~ More food for me since everyone is so busy with shampoo >_>

Danger Will Robinson..

qt_foxee@yahoo.com — Fri, 19 Oct 2001 05:04:56 GMT

Looks like the pilots had some sort of argument or disagreement or whatever... Even Duo's being a piss-ant. 9_9 I asked him about what's going on and he replies with a "They're being dicks!" And stomped off like a three years old. Now I can't even get near within 10 feet of Heero without encountering this invisible force that holds me back. 9_9

Bah!!! Stupid men! I'm gonna go eat all the ice cream just to spite them :PPPPPPPPPPPPPP

OOC

qt_foxee@yahoo.com — Tue, 02 Oct 2001 01:27:59 GMT

If you guys don't know yet, the GWAU site has been moved to a new URL at:

http://tahimik.denseminds.com/gwau

So, make the changes on your LJs ^_~

Heh heh heh.........

qt_foxee@yahoo.com — Sun, 30 Sep 2001 17:33:45 GMT

Silly Trowy and Duo-kins. I bet all the guys are watching the porno videos together now. Ha ha! maybe Mugen. But he might be kind of scary to watch with....o_O Hrm. So this is what the guys do during their "private collaboration meetings" >:)

My ass!!!!! More like "a bunch of idiots watching porno". Oh no! Quatre's innocent eyes!!!! ~imagines Wufei watching porno~...~cracks up at the thought~ Maybe I should go barge in there and surprise them.... their door is locked though... Hmmm..... GOOD thing Duo thought me how to pick locks!!! I'll be RIGHT back...

------

Few minutes later ^_~

~is rolling around laughing~ I've never seen such horrified looks on the pilots faces! Hah hahahaha! Oh that was good. I was able to pick the lock on the door and since the guys were kind of BUSY they didn't really notice. Jeez, guys. Leaving your guard down like that would get you killed. ~snickers~ Imagine that. The pilots are taken down while watching porno. Now that's an embarassing way to go.

They were watching cheap porno too since Duo's a cheapass like that. Like it matters to them as long as there was boobage. It was called Muffy the Vampire F*****...............~cracks up again~ Wufei turned so white, and then red. I mean... REALLY red. I was afraid he would explode. He let out this really high-pitched scream and almost threw me out of the door. Heero tried to get out of it by putting on is perfect soldier front and pretending he had no part in this. BS, Heero, BS! ;)

Oh, I'm so evil. ~runs away now before she gets tarred and feathered~

~hugs Heero~

qt_foxee@yahoo.com — Sun, 23 Sep 2001 18:46:37 GMT

Since I've been pouting (~ahemscoughs~) over the letters Relena sent Heero...*someone* placed a boquet of my favorite flowers in my room... Anonymously... But I think I know who it is...

Heero would be the only cowardly baka who would pull a thing like that... ;) Ha ha.

I feel somewhat sorry for Relena, I suppose. I guess in a way her and Heero had a history... Might not matter to Heero, but it matters to her...c.c... Poor stupid girl. ^_^; I'm so mean..u_u..

qt_foxee@yahoo.com — Sat, 08 Sep 2001 07:32:48 GMT

Ugh.. I hate my nose. It's so freaking itchy and stuff... I must be allergic to something. Change your cologne, Duo!!! ;)